are you sure you want to be happy?

debates are not my thing. thankfully, i'm sure my opponents (2 guys that don't come to class on time, or at all, and my friend who probably won't care enough to do a good job) don't like debates much either. My team is pretty awesome, except one person who's pretty much as dumb as dumb shit, but in a different way. let's call this one "ass hat". ass hat thinks just because i talked to her that i'm her best friend in the whole world. the problem is that ass hat one of those kids that is social, but with people that don't want to be social with nerdy, annoying, incompetent weirdos that just can't take a hint. and of course i get made fun of every time i'm in a class with her, since i also have those classes with renee, and so she laughs because of a date scene i did in broadcasting. i was too slow to put down my hand after she was chosen, and now i'm paying for it.

my dad isn't very attentive. i've told him i need to go out and get some dress clothes, and he's pretty much become the master of tuning me out just enough that he can assure me that we'll do something about it, but then forgets because he's not listening.

by the way, i found out that i'm probably not getting any christmas presents this year. Thats almost the worst news any kid can get. that or "your father has just died, so you'll have to live with your stepmother who will finally go through with her evil plan of getting rid of all electronics in the house". but seriously, it wasn't just this "nathan, you don't get presents" it was something i had to piece together. it wasn't hard of course, but it sucks. it went kind of like this: i'm talking to my cousin about going to his apartment to chill with him and his friends over christmas, and he's like "so are you bringing presents to open with us? because my parents have decided to stop getting presents for cousins and stuff" and i was like (jokingly, by the way) "yeah, sure, if i get any presents lol" and then i told my dad and i'm like "so yeah, will i have any presents?" and he's like "i dunno, will you?". fucker. so then he asked me if a did want a present this year.

.... um.... DUH!

that's like asking someone if they want to be happy, or if they want to sit on a couch, miserable, and watch everyone else be happy for several hours. so he said his present could be some money for when i go to my cousin's house. okay well he always gives me money for going to my cousin's house. i think it's supposed to be more money than usual, but who knows.

well
you've found a little piece of hell
i hope there's a mirror in your cell
to break every day you wake up to you and take a look at yourself
now, calm down
just another tear from the
sad clown
take another year, put it
on the ground
spread it all around
little gas, and a match
and it's all gonna pass

keep it so ninja that it makes the neighbors move to alaska, and buy a condo to rent out to fish salesmen.