good riddance! now zoidberg is the popular one!

so i don't know if i'm going to like next semester. i don't have a spare, i STILL have broadcasting which forces me to wake up early every other week, and even though Juliann is gone, Hawa is back, and she messes with my brain with her ways.

i think i want to make another one of those 25 things notes. i have so many things people don't know, and unlike some people (not an insult or whatever) i really like talking about myself. it's probably because i spent most of my life at home by myself. i also found out (you know...on a totally unrelated note) that i like sympathy. i think i'm a jerk for that, but it's fun to know people care. again i spent most of my life alone, so i started thinking that nobody cared about me, and that they were all avoiding me. this may have caused them to avoid me tho, if i talked about sad things :P.

i need a punching bag. i keep remembering when i was jumped, and i want to know that i can break someone's nose when i have to. this may be because whenever i dream about being in a fight i always miss, or just punch like a sissy. i bet if i showed that anger that i have pent up inside me i could break a jaw (yes i have thin arms, but i've bent my bed frame from punching it when i was pissed).

i think i know why i was (and hopefully am not anymore) a sissy. i was raised by only my dad who was trying too hard to be my mom, and my first friend was a girl who was only friends with girls. my dad also let me play with polly pockets and barbie dolls, and nothing was said. it's like the opposite of that story ashley tells everyone about the fact that she played with hotwheels.

i started this post so long ago. it's been like 5 hours or something. it took me a while to find the saved draft too.

janet just took my dad upstairs to talk to him alone cause he made a comment about the fact that caleigh doesn't know the right timing for making a meal. all he said was that "she has a strange way of making (whatever meal she's making). she's left the water boiling for 15 minutes, and she's playing the piano." what kind of asshole finds that offensive? and it's not even her! she's feeling offended for her kid who wouldn't care! fucking dumb shit.

i should have checked my free girl shirt before i started posting again, but i didn't think this far ahead.

i wish i had the ability to move through shadows so that i could go to urban planet again, and buy some sweet shirts.

picture yourself
in a boat on a river
where thousands of midgets
just sing the same song


keep it ninja for as long as you can, and then try to beat your record.